Trying to cure loneliness only makes it worse

It's stuff like this which really makes me wonder if I genuinely may be cursed. If you've been following this blog for a good minute, then you may or may not have a decent understanding of what this blog, MrHushHush, is all about. Truthfully, you probably don't, and that's perfectly fine, because at times, even…

Poem – Go Insane

I said "Without you, I'm lost. And I don't know where to go." She grinned as she turned her back and said "Go insane." Have a good Sunday 🙂 -Jordan

Not Meant to Love

I fucking suck with relationships. Since I moved out at 18, my dream has always been to get to a point where I can comfortably live close to my family--my "home"--again. Almost seven years later, and that dream of mine has finally come true. But now that I'm here, I just want to go somewhere…

Poem: The Wanderer

The road was cold A frigid night and snow as the boy began a journey all alone The road was cold beneath his bare bleeding toes as he traveled from the East to the far West coast And he called out with his soul He called out 'Hello!' But the only thing to call back…

Trust Issues

My problems with relationships was how this blog came to be. It’s beauty was birth from a moment of pure travesty and despair. A moment when I was at my loneliest and at my lowest. It was a marker in my life I promised to never let myself fall back to. And I've really tried…

“She’s getting too close.”

Those words hold such a familiar sound as they echo through my life. I didn't realize my tongue had become so familiar with such a heartbreaking sentence. But as they yet again fell from my lips like 100 pound weights, I realized I may have a problem. I have a friend. He's been a friend…

Poem: LONER

They showed me a path One which cut through the dense forest like a knife Paved guaranteed to keep me safe I said No thanks. Turned and walked into the trees to pave my own way and in the process began to suffocate Night fell quick and little did I know the sun would never…

Poem: Is Goodbye to Me that Easy

They don't notice me I live life so lowkey Alone but not so lonely Still, wont anyone ever come and hold me? Nobody wants to pay attention till I'm sittin wrist slit A victim of something hidden They wont care till I'm dead then the whole town is my best friend talking on what never…

Someone Take Me Home

Home is where the heart is. My home--my family--is my everything. Really, it's funny I say that, because anytime I decide to move, I purposely make the decision to stay living halfway across the US from where my family is. Honestly, I just think there's more I need to learn on my own, and that's…

“Don’t you get lonely?”

When he learned that I live on my own, 1,600 miles away from family, his first question was, "Don't you get lonely?"